Back to the future

”Is being heart-broken the result of too much love, or reliance?”
– Joanne Peh

Yeah, I took it from her blog, Circus Of Joy, but I’m acknowledging her, right? Now, put down your tomatoes and comprehend the quote.

Yeah, its 2009. First blog entry of the year. Teh topic?

Love. (Surprise, surprise!)

Oh shut up, I’m not in love. I’m too young. I’m 13 for God’s sake.

Yeah, what IS love exactly? Is it a feeling? Or a physical representation of ‘attraction’?

Love can be anything. For example, caring for your friend, that’s love, ain’t it? Yeah. Being married, that’s love. Worrying about your mother, who is overseas, that’s love too. But what IS it, exactly?

Nope, I’m not talking about that ‘OMG ILU BE MAI GF AIISHIITERU~’ or ‘110907! 5 months with MAI B0iB0i! ILU!’ shit. That certainly isn’t love.

Crap.

You may think your so called ‘crush’ is love, but, its not. It’s called infatuation.

You may also think that worrying about your friend is love, but maybe, its not. Maybe its because you don’t want to be called ‘unsympathetic’.

You may think that being married is love, but no, with marriage, there is this opposite called ‘divorce’ right?

So, that means, love can be anything. But, it can also be nothing.
Maybe, love is a personal opinion.
Well, I think that love is just a feeling. It can increase over time, as in obsession, and decrease, as in indifferent.

So, what IS love, generally? (AMAHGAWSH, IVE BEEN SAYING THIS FOR 92450275892 TIMES)

Hey, Joanne’s quote made me think too, love can be reliance too. For example, yeah, yo ‘love’ your computer, but maybe its because you rely on it to communicate. See? Love can be ANYTHING!

Sigh. Love is but a mysterious thing.
I love you, that special someone, whoever you might be.

(What a messed up post this is ._.)

So, lemme end this post with a question.

What does love mean to YOU?

Happy New Year.

Love you everyone =o

(Golly, Joanne’s blog is inspiring, and no, NOT YOU ANNE.)

bzzt.

by =Kitsune-Notunai

Undead as in zombies, ghosts (<3), Silent Hill psychological monsters, vampires (the real ones, not the #@%@%ing sparkling Edward 'I have preteen girls lusting over me so I'm cool' Cullen) and Resident Evil beastehsss. (AND TEH FLOOD <3)

that’s all i wanted to say.

oh, and:

<3

by =SpitFire19er

oh no

What.

Am I awake now? Oh, I am.

Crap, I hear school approaching. Don’t get me wrong. I love projects (wtf?) homework (WHATTHEFUCK?) and exams (WHATTHEBLOODYFUCKINGSHIT?). But, I hate my class. Bahh.

My school, yeah, is full of mother ‘you just got owned’ing people. Why didn’t I study hard enough to get into the school my mom wants me to go into ._. Shan’t say it here, lest someone kills me.

My class? Oh, don’t you mean those horny gay bastards who touch each others genitalia just because ‘[they] want to check’. Bah, get me outta that place. Oh, and just because drawing is my hobby they automatically expect ME to do their ART HOMEWORK for them. What the fuck? Do I look like a maid to you? And don’t give me that shit about calling me artist because I AM NOT ONE. It gives me a bad image because it looks like I’m the only one who’s good in art, and that I’m mean when I don’t fucking accept your offer to do your damn homework for you. You bastards. The only people that I respect in that hellhole is my small circle of friends like Wesley, Aqmal, Thomas and Chang Wei. ’cause they actually care for me. Yeah, I get it, you asked what was wrong with me, but seriously, I know you guys want me back there (WHEN I WAS FUCKING SICK) to do your art homework, but this has gone too far. That son of a swine (shan’t say who, for privacy. I don’t want my actual FRIENDS to insult him) even went as far to say ‘eh, ‘cher, this guy also from our class leh, how come he no need to go leh?’ whenever my class went to the library. (Oh btw, during my period of ‘sickness’ I stayed in the library during school hours)

(I know its December, and this rant is a lil late, but my mind’s clear now.)

My school? Yeah. Now, I’m dreading the day I step into that campus and see people look at me and chuckle. Bastards, do I look like a source of entertainment? What, you don’t have any source of entertainment at home? Oh, you poor things. Betcha parents died from AIDS. Has the virus corrupted your minds too? I can’t believe people like them are still alive in this world. Pfft. Oh, you like my name? Is that the reason you keep calling it whenever I walk past you? Thank God for my so called ‘adjustable attention span’. If I didn’t have it, I would have just collapsed and cried there. Psh, douche bags.

Yeah, this is a rant. If you haven’t noticed. Now, ‘scuse me while I go vent my anger on the Flood in Halo 3.

listen to my cries

Koe – Tsukiko Amano

Koe – Tsukiko Amano

Tatoeba umi no soko de
Anata ga ikiteru no nara
Watashi wa nihon no ashi wo kitte
Sakana ni narou

Fukami e ochiru hodo ni
Anata ga chikazuku no nara
Hatenai yami wo samayou kage ni
Natte mo ii

Adeyaka ni tadayou watashi no kagerou
Kanawanai hibi ni oboreita dake
Anata wa inai
Wakatteiru
Wakatteiru

Noboru noboru taiyou ga
Watashi no basho wo jouka suru
Aoku kizamu kokuin wo
Nurui nurui kaze ga saratte yuku

Tatoeba kono kotoba ga
Anata ni todoku no naraba
Watashi no seitai wo toriagete
Sutetemo ii

Azayakana kizu wo nakushita ima wo
Nanimokamo ubau anata no ondo wo
Motometeita
Motometeita
Maboroshi demo

Kieru kieru nukumori ga
Watshi no basho wo tsurete yuku
Batsu wo nuguu sono ude ni
Dakare nagara nemuri ni tsukitai

Noboru noboru taiyou ga
Watashi no basho wo jouka suru
Batsu wo nuguu sono ude ni
Dakare nagara nemuritai
Kieru kieru nukumori ga
Watshi no basho wo tsurete yuku
Aoku kizamu kokuin wo
Nurui nurui kaze ga saratte yuku

Mushibande yuku kioku no hahen
Watashi wo fusagu PIASU ga tarinai
Warureteshimau boyakete shimau
Anata no koe ga zattou ni kieru
Mushibande yuku nukeochite yuku
Watashi wo fugasu PIASU ga tarinai
Atokata mo naku wasurete shimau
Anata no koe ga zattou ni naru
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English translation:

If, for example, you lived at the bottom of the sea
I’d cut my feet off and become a fish
If I got closer to you the deeper I sank
I wouldn’t even mind becoming a shadow that wanders through the endless darkness

My shimmering haze hangs charmingly in the air
I was just drowning in the days that didn’t work out
You’re not here
I know that, I know that

As the sun rises and rises
It purifies the place where I am
The warm, warm wind takes away
The blue stamp imprinted on me

If, for example, these words reach you
You can rip out my vocal cords and throw them away

I was longing, longing
To have lost my stinging wounds
And for your warmth to take everything away
Even if it was just a dream

Your warmth is disappearing, disappearing
Taking with it the place where I am
I want to go to sleep wrapped in your arms
That even wipe out my punishment

The sun rises and rises
Purifying the place where I am
I want to sleep wrapped in your arms
That even wipe out my punishment

As your warmth disappears, disappears
It takes away the place where I am
The warm, warm wind takes away
The blue stamp imprinted on me

The pieces of my memories are rotting away
I don’t have enough piercings to cover myself
I’m forgetting you, you’re fading
Your voice fades into the rabble

The pieces of my memories are rotting away
I don’t have enough piercings to cover myself
I’m forgetting you, you’re fading
Your voice fades into the rabble
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Yeah, this is the song I was talking about in that ‘song anthem for 2008’.

mm

i’m sick. kthxbai.

but well enough to do Jo’s tag.

1. What was the highlight of your 2008 year?
Promoted to Sec1

2. Would you say you have grown older both physically and mentally?
Yes.

3. Did you make any friends this year?
Yes.

4. If so, Name a few. if not, what did you do instead?
Wesley, Thomas, Chang Wei, BBGians I met this year, etcetc.
Oh, I just realised I have been in BBG for like 3 years now.

5. Do You have a picture of yourself in your favourite Holiday season of 2008?

Error detected.
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-computer crashes-

6. Why is it your favourite holiday?
Um…. because its actually fun to go to the Philippines during the holidays and just relax there? Lying in a hammock on a farm right after swimming in a river is shiok, okay.

7. What is your 2008 Song Anthem?
Koe – Tsukiko Amano

8. Give a logical reason why.
Meaningful and sad; both of which I like.

9. Give a motto for your 2008.
‘School is bullcrap’

10. State a few things you changed this year.
I got more immersed in the survival horror genre starting with Silent Hill and then onto Fatal Frame. I actually touched MaepulStoree (omg ew) and I finally managed to watch the whole series of Cardcaptor Sakura >_>

11. Did you find a new story in 2008 to tell in 2009?
Title: The Boy Who Played Too Much Fatal Frame.

In the ending, he got obsessed with cameras and began taking photos of weird random things.

12. Did you have fun in 2008?
Surprisingly, yes.

Due to Fatal Frame =o

13. Any last words to the year 2008?
Fuck you.

14. pass on the tag to 2008 people.
-tags 2008 people-
-fails-

Happy Birthday, Jesus.

:)

Merry Christmas, all of you guys.

I woke up especially early just to watch the sunrise on Jesus’ birthday. I would be going to church later, if I can make it ><

Anyway, Santa died. His death was reported 2 hours ago when his dead body was found in Malmo, Sweden. He died of a heart attack. He was too fat.

The above is fake, because plainly, he doesn’t exist.
(Yeah, I know Santa was created when St. Nick went around giving presents, but can’t they say St. Nick? Santa sounds so… evil and pedophilic.)

Little children have been lied to by their parents. Christmas is not about Santa, its about Christ, on his special day. It’s all about Him.

Why am I typing this, you say? Because I was moved by a video shown to me by Glenn last night. It really touched me, and it made me awaken. Jesus died for us. He is the reason that we’re living right now. I cannot believe that I, a juvenile male, used to actually HATE going to church every Christmas. I feel really guilty right now. But I know, that He would forgive me, as I repented. Yes. So, happy birthday, Jesus Christ.

If you wanna see the vid, go to Glenn’s blog. Sorry for those who don’t have access to it. =o

Merry Christmas, and remember that God loves you. :D

(I love you too =x)

(insert title here)

Ohaithar.

IT’S CHRISTMAS EVE! ONE MORE DAY TO JESUS’ BIRTHDAY!

Sorry, I’m just so happy.
Happy that there would be celebrations, rejoicing and whatnot. But mainly because ITS JESUS’ BIRTHDAY.

Let me tell you, for the past few years I have lived, I have never been so happy because of Christmas. (That sounded grammatically wrong, but then, who cares?) Maybe its because I have finally awakened and realised that God created all of us, and that we must be happy on Christmas. Yeah.

And no, I didn’t forget about my Xmas rant. I decided not to do it, because plainly, I don’t wanna be pissed during Christmas.

It’s time for Christmas to be celebrated like Christmas! No more fat old man in red with a beard repeatedly saying ‘Whore! Prostitute! Slut!’ while riding a magical sled carried by his reindeer (I wonder how they can survive his weight) giving presents. It makes Christmas sound pedophilic D:

Anywho, Christmas = celebrations. I’m going to my friend’s house to sleepover. I’ll be bringing my Xbox 360 and Wii, duh, to play DMC4 non-stop ’til my eyes bleed! Okay, maybe not. (Although Nero is uber cool with his devil arm/power glove thing. Lulz, a demon fighting for the sake of good, that’s like… kewl)

Yeahh, I’ll write more later at my friend’s place.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL AND I LOVE YOU! :D

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Tagged by Jo

TEN ARE YOUS (… what?)
1. Are you single – Yes
2. Are you happy – At the moment, yes, I’m quite content.
3. Are you bored – Pet Society is not doing its job of entertaining me
4. Are you fair – .. Fair as in complexion or fair as in attitude? Complexion – no. Attitude – Quite.
5. Are you Italian – NO O_O
6. Are you intelligent – How can I answer this without being boastful?
7. Are you honest – ….. Yes… >_>
8. Are you nice – Yesss.
9. Are you Irish – Not at all.
10. Are you Asian – Yes.

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name – Joshua Marc Lee Chun Loong
2. Nickname – Marc/Marceh >_>
3.Birth place – Mt. Elizabeth Hospital, Singapore. (LULZ ‘MEH’.)
4. Hair color – Darkish brown
5. Natural hair style – CURLY D:
6. Eye colour – Dark brown
7. Birthday – 2nd March 1995
8. Mood – High >_>
9. Favorite color – Black, Green, Dark Blue, White.
10. One place you’d like to visit – Japan. I wanna go capture sum ghostzsz!

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – No, but I have been infatuated. >_>
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – … That’s dumb.
3. Do you currently have a crush? – No.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally – Yes
5. Have you ever broken some one’s heart – … How the hell should I know
6. Have you ever had your heart broken – Omg, if my heart would break, I would die of internal bleeding.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – No.
8. Are you afraid of commitment – No. o.o
9. Who was the last person you hugged – My sister.
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? – My sister O:

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust – Love. … Lust is a sin.
2. Hard liquor or beer – BEER. Liquor is … D:
3. Cats or dogs – Both. I like both :D
4. A few best friends or any regular friends – Make that regular best friends.
5. Creamy or Crunchy – Mmmm…. Krispy Kreme donuts…
6. Pencil or Pen – BOTH! BUT PENCILS MORE! <33
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – Both sound wrong. Casual night out lulz.
8. Money or Happiness – You need an equal amount of both
9. Night or day – Before dawn breaks, its so nostalgic.
10. IM or phone – IM. I’ve been without a phone for 1 year and I’m still alive.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – … Yes.
2. Seen a polar bear – No D:
3. Done something you regret – I regretted that I woke up early today.
4. Bungee jumped – Nope.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor – Yes.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – No.
7. Been caught naked – O_O
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – No.
9. Cried because you lost a pet – No
10. Wanted to disappear – Yes. All the time.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes – Both pl0cks.
2. Light or dark hair – Both would be fine.
3. Hugs or kisses – Both.
4. Shorter or taller – Shorter. =x
5. Intelligence or attraction – Umm. Both?
6. Topman or Zara – I don’t like both of them D:
7. Funny or serious – Seriously funny :D
8. Older or Younger – Both will do. (OMG that sounded wrong)
9. Outgoing or quiet – Outgoing.
10. Sweet or Bad – Sweet.
…. Um, why do quizzes always ask this?

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd – Yes.
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour – Yes.
3. Ever tried walking on your hands – Yes. I survived that fateful 6 seconds.
4. Ever been to a rock concert – No.
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team – O_O There’s no cheerteam in my school
6. Ever been on a dance team – No.
7. Ever been on a sports team – Yes.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production – Yes
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? – Underaged, but I want to.
10. Ever been in a rap video? – I read rap as rape =.= No.

TEN… LASTS
1. Last phone call you made – I forgot
2. Last person you hugged – My sis.
3. Last person you hung out with – Forgot, I think it was Clar and Veron and two more ppl
4. Last time you worked – Cleaned my room >_>
5. Last person you talked to – My sis
6. Last person you IM’d – Galvin
7. Last person you texted – No phone D:
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – Clar, Veron, and those two ppl
9. Last person/thing you missed – The internet.
10. Last website visited – hentai.com veoh.com, to watch CCS.
TEN… PEOPLE TO DO THIS

1. You
2. You
3. You
4. You
5. You
6. You
7. You
8. You
9. You
10. You.
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Stole this from =Ailionora on deviantART :D

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate?
Chocolate flavrd Egg Nog.

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
I killed Santa.

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white?
Coloured.

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
No.

5. When do you put your decorations up?
October O_O

6. What is your favorite holiday dish/dessert?
I like Turkey.

7. Favorite Christmas memory as a child:
I put the angel on top of the tree <3

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
I didn’t believe in him in the first place.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
I opened one last week XD

10. How do you decorate your Christmas Tree?
Stuff…. more stuff…. … stuff

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it?
Make it snow in Singapore and I’ll tell you.

12. Can you ice skate?
Yes.

13. Do you remember your FAVORITE gift?
Nope

14. Do you remember your WORSE gift?
Nope

15. What is the most important thing about the Christmas Holidays for you?
Jesus Christ =D

16. What tops your tree?
Now? A star.

17. Which do you prefer giving or receiving?
Both! ^^

18. What is your favorite Christmas Song?
Silent Night >_>

19. Do you dress up on Christmas or wear PJs?
PJ’s ftw!

20. Who do you normally spend Christmas with?
Everyone. <3

Tagging Jo, Anne, not Glenn and Jason >_>

I’ve got the power.

/marc/ says:
LOL

/marc/ says:
melamine

/marc/ says:
melamine tastes like vanilla

[gleNNbot;] says:
no

[gleNNbot;] says:
it’s a lie

[gleNNbot;] says:
vanilla tastes like melamine

Mmkay.

>_>

>_>

Sleeping for 2 hours make me feel light headed and high. I’ll blog later, but do a tag now.

1. Who is the last person who tagged you?
Jason

2. The relationship between you and him?
Relationship just sounds so wrong. Anyway, fellow BBGian

3. Your 5 impressions of him?
i. (insert impression here)
ii. -coughcough-
iii. suans clar alot
iv. (insert another impression here)
v. I dunno.

4. If he becomes your enemy, you will?
ummm, move on? :D

5. What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
I have a feeling that I answer this before. Oh well.
“Ohaithar I liek euu so uh thanks for being one of the people I liek”
Either that or just stare.

6. The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is?
Everything? :D

7. The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is?
I’m emoTIONAL for nothing at some times.

8. For the person you hate you say..
I have a feeling I’ve answer’d this too.
“Ohaithar I hate euu, so uh, go die in a fire, since I hate euu and all.”

9. What do people feel about you?
I do not know that because I am not ‘people’

10. Who do you have a crush on?
My sketchbook >_>
and zalethio
OMG CRUSHING ON YOUR ORIGINAL CHARACTER IS BAAAD.

11. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Zalethio
Myself?

12. Pass on this quiz to 10 people.
Nah, I won’t tag, so here’s a emoticon.

And, ANOTHER ONE!

Kthxbaiiloveyou.

Help me.

Before I blog, lemme do a tag.

Tagged by Xena

1. Who is the last person who tagged you?
Xena

2.The relationship between you and her/him?
Personal slave Secretary >_>, Junior and my subordinate in QNPS Band :O

3.Your 5 impressions on her/him?
Funny,
Crazy,
… (insert 3 more impressions)

4.If she/he becomes your enemy,you will?
Hire a new secretary :O

5.What will you say to the person whom you like very much?
Ohaithar, I liek euu. So, uh, kthxbai.

6.The characteristic(s) you love about yourself is …?
I’m crazy.

7.The characteristic(s) you hate about yourself is …?
*cough*

8.For the person you hate you say…
Ohaithar, I hate euu. So, uh, kthxbai. Oh, and, die in a fire. :D

9.What do people feel about you?
*shrug*

10.Who do you have a crush to?
My sketchbook.
and zalethio

11.The most ideal person you want to be is …?
Why does every quiz want me to reveal to the whole fat world what/who do I like?

12.Pass on this quiz to 10 people. List 10 people
1) Jolynne
2) Galvin
3) Veronica
4) Xena >_>
5) Glenn
6) Wei Ting
7) Gracia
8) Jason
9) Yi Ping
10) Muzafar

13. If no 5 & 7 were together, what would happen? (Glenn & Gracia)
Um, wow. *speechless*

14. Who does no. 5 like? (Glenn)
I dunno. Go ask him yourself. (insert happy face here)

15. Who does 9 like? (YP)
Omgah, stop asking ‘who does blahblah liek lol?’

16.say something about no.8 (Jason)
Uh…. random shizz. That’s all.

17.Who is no.2 (Galvin)
Best friend. (insert happy face)

18.Talk about no.3(Veronica)
The batch who introduced me to Resident Evil (insert yet another happy face)

19.Who is no.10’s bestie? (Muzafar)
I dunno. :D

20.Who is the sexiest person among the 10 people.
If I could answer this, I would be very disturbed.

21.What colour does no.4 like? (Xena)
Pink? Don’t kill me if I got this wrong. :O

22.Is no .4 single? (Xena)
Retarded question, go ask her. Dumb quiz.

23.What is your relationship with no.1? (Jo)
Fellow comrade in the Anti GA alliance
The only person to agree that Anne is siao.

24.Are no.5 and 6 bestfriends? (Glenn & WT)
>_> Nu.

25.What is no.9’s surname? (YP)
Go buy a Yeo’s drink. The surname will smack you in the face.

26.What is no.7’s surname? (GRACIEH)
Goh. :D

27.What things do you wish to say to no.8? (Jason)
WUTLOL

28.What you would do to help no.9?(YP)
Give her lemon curd. It’s the cause of and solution of all life problems! Or was it alcohol..

29.Who does no.1 admires? (Jo)
She did not give me permission to advertise it here.

30.Where does no.1 stay at? (Jo)
MALAYSIA ARH. MOVE TO SG LAAAA

31.Does the 10 of them know who you like?
=.= I don’t like anybody. (insert happy face)

32.What do you need to say to no.6? (WeiTing)
don’t eat bread until you’re sick of it again, lol.

33.Who is no.10’s spouse? (Muz)
I dunno. *spongebob voice*

>_> Shall blog again later.