go let it in

There’s a gap in between
There’s a gap where we meet
Where I end and you begin

And I’m sorry for us
The dinosaurs roam the earth
The sky turns green
Where I end and you begin

I’m up in the clouds
I’m up in the clouds
And I can’t and I can’t come down

I can watch and not take part
Where I end and where you start
Where you, you left me alone
You left me alone

X’ll mark the place
Like the parting of the waves
Like a house falling in the sea
In the sea
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Har, it’s funny. I’m avoiding you, yet I miss you more than ever.

OTL

Pray For Rain

Bye bloggy. I’ll be leaving you for awhile. Try not to harm anyone in the meantime, okay?

Fuck.

The next person to ask whether I’m fuckin’ okay or not, I’ll fucking smash your fucking cunt/dick with a fucking hammer and cave your face in and rip out your spinal cord, kay?

Fuck labels, fuck the word ‘misanthrope’, fuck what you all think of me, I’m myself. If you ever fucking label me, I’ll take a fucking cleaver and fucking cave your head in, kay? But I’ll make sure I won’t kill you, the best is after that. I’ll push your sorry state off a building into a busy road, and still make sure you’re alive after that, and maim you slowly while you’re still fucking conscious. Yes, take a hint, I’m a jerk, and I hate you all.

Who wants to sleep in a city that never wakes up?

When I lose something I always try to ignore it and substitute it with other things, but in the end it doesn’t work and it ends up hurting me more.

Yeah, 1st stupid emotional fucking idiotic blog post of this fucking year. And I thought all my problems were gone with 2009.

Sometimes I glorify myself too much until I delude myself from realising that I’m no better than an average human. But fuck it, other people HAVE to be worse than me right?

Meh.

Adagio for Strings

I’ve started using DMC4’s Mission Names as my titles because they’re awesome. Like “The Ninth Circle” and “La Vita Nuova”. Yes, I understand the french ones too. La Porte De L’Enfer means the Gates of Hell, La Vita Nuova means A New Life. See. :D

Today started out weird and.. well, kinda amusing, in my opinion.

I was almost late today D: Thanks to well, the stupid traffic jam, but today Mr Hafiz didn’t book anyone, according to what I saw. Haha.

So I was reading the newspaper during Reading Period when SFD pulled me out. At first I was like “ohshit did i do anything wrong” but apparently my form teacher, Uncle Goh, wanted to have a “In Conversation” with me. Haha, meaning that he wanted to know more about me by asking me questions that seem like it came from my own parents. XD

First of all he asked me how was the Sec 2 life, and compared to last year whether it was better or not. I got really tense and started blabbing about how Mr Hafiz doesn’t punish us anymore and all that. Somehow it drifted to education so I told him about the subject combinations I wanted, and where I wanted to go after Secondary school. Then we went on about my CCA and me being in TAF (I told him I didn’t have time to exercise during my free time because I said TAF was beneficial, and he went on saying “Aiya I know these kinda excuses la don’t need to fake with me” I laughed so hard.)

Then he asked me what my ambition was, and I said writer. He went all OwO and asked me what kind of writer I wanted to be. I said ‘horror’ but he heard ‘corror’ or something. Then I explained further and said “ghost stories” and he lit up and said “Wow, really?!” and then I told him why I liked horror (because I have a morbid fear of the supernatural and I love to scare myself). Then it somehow drifted to us talking about random horror movies LOL.

Hahaha, it wasn’t bad as I thought it would be. Awesome la. :D

Then the periods flew by. Hahaha. During Maths we had to separate some pasta, sesame seeds and red and green beans for our first lesson it Set Language and Notation (I think). I went to disturb Mr Chong, saying that it was actually his job to separate this, and it was given to him by his mother. He just wanted us to separate it for him and saying that it is Maths. I even went as far as to say “Aiya tomorrow sure he bring us beansprouts to pluck the roots la, and he sure say got maths thing inside one la.” Hahaha.

History was awesome! Ms Shanti seriously funny la deyh. :)

Then the day went on and on. Haha.

Anyway, as a last note, Chester, you still owe me a $1.80 bubble tea. I owe you a lollipop I sure buy the flavour you don’t like one la

Ciao. :D

Claire, my friend, says hi to you all. 8DDDDD She’s mah “THATS WHAT SHE SAID” partner in crime :eyes:

I'm bringing sexyback 8D

OHAI I R BACK.

Camp was ……………….. fun lawl.

1st Day

Reached school and waited for all eternity to get on to the buses and get ourselves to Jalan Bathera. In the meantime, our instructor (Instructor Cress <- he likes to bully me) made us play some icebreaking games! (Redundant actually, since my group comprised of my classmates lol) And I made a mistake by giving my phone to SFD for safekeeping. Gah.

Blahblahblah reached there, did usual camp stuff (like getting into our groups, orientation etc). Next, we did the CRC (Confidence Rope Course aka high elements) and Rock Climbing! I didn't want to 'climb the rock' so I just sat there and looked at people climbing. Then we did the CRC, which again I skipped, but helped Cress (i.e. be his anchorman, since he was the belayer and stuff.) Slacked around the various elements. Yup. Showered, had dinner, then played Kidnap. I had fun doing the stupid "sit-on-each-other-and-sing" task because we sang a really retarded song XD (PIA PIA PIA PIA PIA!) 2nd place for Kidnap. Had supper, slept. Or, tried to. Slept at 3am =.=

2nd Day

Had a rude awakening at 5am by some itchiness XD There was swimming sounds coming from the sea next to my bunk. I freaked out and thought it was a monster or something LOL. I fell asleep at 5.15 AM and woke up at 6.30 AM. I slacked in the bunk for another 15 minutes before going down to brush teeth. Then we assembled at the canteen for breakfast. The beehoon was white and tasteless =.= Oh well. Changed and went for kayaking! The bouyancy test was fun ‘cuz Jean kept shouting because she was scared XDDD Kayaking was fun.

Went back to shore, showered and changed. Met at our bunk and thought we could slack but Cress said we had to come up with a skit/dance/singalong for the campfire. We spent at least 45 mins choosing the song and settled for SexyBack XD Then we went for lunch and back to the bunk for rehearsal. We couldn’t dance in time so we settled for a skit (making fun of Uncle Goh and Ms Shanthi by acting out their supposed ‘marriage’ XD)

Went for abseiling and the zip line. To be honest, I was really afraid of abseiling. I left it to fate and just went up (while Cress bullied me again =.=) and abseiled down. It wasn’t scary at all o_o just painful. The rope was D< I wanted to go to the zip line but there was no time. Went back and showered, rehearsed more and went for dinner. After dinner we had the campfire. It was lol-worthy. Chief Mojo dancing XD Cress asked us to do his own 'dance' (dubbed, 'THE FINGER!' which just includes moving your index finger left and right). We went up for our performance, and the teachers were laughing so hard XD Mr Hafiz asked Ms Shanthi to sit next to Uncle Goh LOL. More campfire stuff and shizz. Had supper (I didn't) and Cress debriefed us after. He bullied me again =.=

3rd Day

Woke up at 6am. Slacked for 1 hour before reporting at the parade square with our bags. Had breakfast, and the nasi lemak, for once, wasn’t tasteless! It was quite nice tbh. Did area cleaning, but I didn’t have to because I was taking care of Cress’ phone 8D And he bullied me AGAIN because Brian took the phone away from me. =.= Had prize giving and shizz. Then went home! YAY!
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-sighs- I b tired nao. Lolz.

Bai!

EDITEDITEDIT!:

Before I forget, I would like to say that Cress is teh best instructor EVAR!!1one!11!!shift+1!11one!!1

Oh right, CRESS TAN HOCK CHUAN (haha yes I’m sabotaging you, don’t kill me.) I cannot seem to find your facebook D<

It's okay to be a little selfish

Tagged by Jo 8D
1. Do you have secrets?
No, I don’t -.-

2. Starbucks or Coffee Bean?
I dunno really, I’d say neutral. I like them both equally XD

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Surprisingly yes.

4. Do you prefer guys with hot looks or with good character?
Both :O :O

4. Do you prefer girls with hot looks or with good character?
Both :O :O

5. Who do you love the most?
Let’s see..

*20 hours late*

Got nothing.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I think that it would be the best if they both existed in tandem.

7. Who is more important? Lovers or best friends?
Best friends! XD

8. The person you like is already attached, what would you do?
Do what I do now lorr. ‘S not like its gonna kill you right?
-planning assassination-

9. What made you smile today?
Melissa (sister’s friend). She was seriously funny XD

“I’m now going to poke you with this needle to sedate you. It’s very long and very thick. I’m now going to poke you in that place. Any second now.”

10. What usually makes you pissed off?
People. XD

11. How would you see yourself in 10 year’s time?
Sitting on rainbows.

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Refer to No. 5.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
Life itself.

14. Are you single or attached?
Platonically attached to Chester Single

15. What is your favourite colour?
All the pastel colours, black, grey, white, crimson, red.

16. What is your wish?
My wish? For me to live as happily as possible. (YES I’m being selfish.)

17. Have you wondered what will happen after life? Are you afraid of it?
-sigh-

If I were to answer this question fully it would take hours to read.

As I always say, “die then die lor.” That’s why you rarely see me emo.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
One of my weak spots, I’m a softie. I melt whenever someone apologises.

19. Which do you prefer? Spending more time with family members or the close/understandable ones?
Close/understandable ones.

20. 5 people you’re gonna tag:
You, You, You, You, You.

Ignorance isn't bliss.

It has always been my world…

My ignorant, carefree world.

I have been living in my own delusion, thinking that no one could enter it, and that I would always be by myself.

But now, the winds of reality has swept my world clean, a once-shining land, now barren.

Why?

You entered my personal space. You taught me reality. And now you leave me cold and shivering in the rain.

What am I supposed to do now?

It hurts. It hurts so much.

Caught beneath the landslide

Wheeeeeee. Boredom^10 is what I describe the weekend with so far.

And so, I shall do a tag!

Spell your name without the letter A:
Mrc! YAAAY!

How’s your love life?
Quite good actually. Got a wife, 2 kids. Yup yup. /sarcasm

When you’re at home alone, do you still close the bathroom door?
LIKE AHMAHGAD OF COURSE! YOU DUNNO WHEN REIKA WILL PEEP ON YOU D: /moresarcasm

Do you like your life right now?
Quite. It’s the weekend.

What was the last item you bought?
-tries to remember- AHA! KFC on Friday~

What was the last thing you drank?
Ice Lemon Tea

What plans do you have for tomorrow?
Go to school, rot in school, go home, rot at home.

What or who do you hate?
Ahh. Good one. Thank goodness it’s not love. Brace youselves.
1. Physics
2. Jonass Brothers
3. Miley Cyrus
4. Twilight (Come ON, Sparkling vampires? More like human who uses too much body glitter)
5. Poseurs
6. Homophobes
7. Thirst
8. FATS. Or more appropriately, LIPIDS.
9. George Bush
10. Stereotypes
11. Those shows like The Human Spirit and the like. I wanna live in my own ignorant carefree world D<
12. Economic meltdown
13. Stephenie ‘I can make sparkly vampires!’ Meyer
14. Hunger
15. My literature results
*list goes on again*

Where was the last place you fell asleep?
In my pants! room

Do you have a best friend that is a girl?
Vivi~

What is your favorite romance movie?
I don’t watch movies.

Do you forgive or forget?
Depends on the person

What are you thinking about right now?
>_> Restaurant City

Who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Hmm..
retroelectric -vivi- says:
*ILU D<.

What are you currently doing?
Watching Tsubasa

What did you do today?
Live

What was the last thing you ate?
Stew

What are you listening to?
CPU

Who does it remind you of?
Bill Gates XD

What was the last movie you watched?
-blanksout-

What CD is in your stereo?
No stereo

What did you do last night?
Watch Kuroshitsuji and Tsubasa until 4am

Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
Loud duh

Are you a beach or a snowy mountain person?
Both! Beaches because of MARINE LIFE! And Snowy mountains because of SNOW!

What are you doing later?
Living

Do you like/love someone?
OF COURSE PEOPLE LIKE VIVI KNOW LA.

Have you ever been tied up?
…………………….
Yes.

Do you get distracted easily?
Nope. Not at al- ooh a butterfly~!

What would you change about your life right now?
Money, Economic Recession to go POOF!

Do you have a guy best friend?
Galvehh.

Who did you last hug and when?
My bolster XD

Do you live alone?
I wish.

Can you keep a secret?
Yes, yes I ca- EH YOU KNOW AH VIVI AH -shot-

What was the best year of your life?
2007. Best. Class. Ever.

P6E1 FOREVAH!

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a letter “D”?
D-yougottabekiddingme.

What about C?
C… wait a minute… C…

>///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////> la.

Do you have trust issues?
Yes.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Galvin o_o
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Mmk. Back to Kuroshitsuji, Tsubasa and Ghost Hunt! 8D

Play that song

Since my CCA’s the Tampines Wind Ensemble (School Band), I think its apt to talk about my passion for music.

Music has always held its thrall on me.

No matter what genre – Pop, Rock, Worship, Jrock, Jpop or otherwise, it has a special place in my life.

Being a somewhat amateur musician myself (I play the tuba… and hopefully I’ll be learning the ocarina in the future… XD) I’ve always appreciated music, or how I call it, pleasurable sound.

How beautiful melodies can be created with such simple notes, or how different musical instruments can meld and compliment each other to sound simply ethereal – that’s what I love about music. Rebellious, peaceful, sensual or upbeat, music can create any mood.

Whenever I successfully play a whole piece of music, I’d feel elated. Achievement, that I would feel. Even more when I memorise a whole score.

Sure, it may be simple for me to play it alone, but what about as a part in a whole band? It would sound complicated but harmonious at the same time, different sounds coming together in a song.

Oh well, after that paragraph I can write no more. My passion for music is just so much that I can’t put it in words.

Ciao~